Its been nearly three months since my last post sorry.... been dealing with stuff. First of all i think im finally coming to peace with myself. Which is good, There is still the usually dark whispers but ive found a new strength and thats in myself, and my friends.
On Another note. Ive realized the old saying of the first love is the hardest. This I hold to be true, within a shadow of a doubt that love does suck ass!!!!! Its been almost 5mths since my last boyfriend. He took me to the darkest point in my life. Though i willingly went along with him on the ride. I met many people some I believe were generally good, but in a dark place others, not so much, they were shadey.
I think i finally found the light side to nic. had to shatter the darkside to find him but i think its working.l though i prolly sound like a complete nutter.
