Step One: Forget Yourself

Everything you ever knew about yourself can be shaped and molded into something beautiful. Think of life as a ball of clay and each moment, Each event shapes that ball of clay, Such as each choice you make impacts how you live.

From Chaos beauty is formed. Have you ever had that moment when in your life all seems to be falling apart, Darkness surrounds you and there is no where to turn. But at the last moment before pure destruction, You are hit with the most powerful calm you have felt, That folks is whats called a pure moment in time. when yourself and the world around you is in sync.

I had once experienced it when i was young, i experienced it alot back then, before i set out on my journey. As I recall it often happened when I was at wrestling matches. The adrenaline and raw power of being in a ring. with one goal, Out last your opponent. Often times a moment of calm came over my mind. And some ancient power infused itself with my soul, It was outstanding, Never before had i been so calm. It allowed me a focus I had never know before.

Until recently in my college years I had not experienced that feeling of calm. Nor the Power of Change that it yields, I had lost my light, my guiding path out of the darkness the past years, and fell into a Depression.  It took an F5 tornado to throw me into that realm again. To continue my search for the light. To shatter the darkness.  Its Strange how 15seconds. (Yep thats how long it lasted) Everything in your life is changed. Nothing is set in  stone. We are fluid, ever changing, ever growing, ever learning.


Since then I've had more of an external look at my life and noticed there was a darkness so deep that surrounded it. The cause of the darkness is very much my own fault, Because I let it into my heart, where it grew and began to fester. After the tornado I was shook to the core. Changed for ever by the true raw power of nature.  I call this major upset, a cornerstone. A place in my life where I have gained access to that power to change. And Changing I am, for what i Think is the better. I lost love, friends, and my self over the years. I have experienced the darkness of others, and the healing light of family and support of friends. 

People have the power to change at any moment in time. The fight for change is often hard, and cuts deeply into the soul. But trust me friends it is well worth it.  So step with me on this journey as we forget our former selves and forge us a new future. Lets step into the light together. 

Ego non solivagus.~ You donot wander alone.